My eyes have been opened.

As many of you know, John Hawkins from Right Wing News is the person that I have considered my mentor. He got me into blogging; he gave me advice on how to get started; and he linked me constantly. He also helped me to become stronger in my conservative beliefs. See, when I first started writing about politics, I considered myself to be merely a moderate Republican. John's influence helped me to make my way down the path to full-fledged conservatism.

I've defended men constantly on my blog from feminists.

Little did I know, they were right. So right.

There's been more to the story about me and John. Many people have guessed, but now, I just can't hold this in anymore. I have to tell the truth.

John and I were exchanging sex for links. Yes, I slept with him in order to get my blog linked more. See, I thought he really liked me. I thought that he just wanted to help me out, that he really cared about me! The sex was so-so, but I got my links and my dreams were coming true. However, he didn't fulfill his side of the bargain -- he promised me that within a year, he could make me as big as Michelle Malkin, which obviously has't happened, and now, I just feel so dirty!

Well, I'm not taking it anymore! I am a woman, and I deserve better. John can find some other noobie unsuspecting blogger to get his punani from.

As for me, my eyes have been opened. I've been wrong, so wrong, and about everything. Men are just horndogs who are looking to keep women down. How could I ever have defended such foul creatures? And conservatism?! What was I thinking? I feel so awful, having been brainwashed by a man who was so insecure in his own self that he had to take advantage of a young, naive blogger and use sex to keep her down and fully entrenched in his masculine, conservative orthodoxy. Republican men don't care about women. They just want to keep us in our place.

That's why I simply cannot let myself do this anymore. I have to be true to what I know is right. And I just cannot be with another man ever again. From now on, I am 100% a lesbian. And conservative Republicans?! They don't care about women. All they care about is lining their pockets with blood money from oil. If I hadn't been so stupid all this time, I would've known that liberals really know how the world works. They've seen Republicans for what they are all this time, and I just didn't get it. I didn't understand.

Well, now my eyes have been opened. And from now on, this blog will be dedicated to fighting conservatism and the horrible patriarchal establishment tooth and nail.

Maybe one day, this will make up for all the harm I've done in the past.

- Cassy